Week 14 – a little self-pity

January 3, 2015 by mariamasterkey 14 Comments

I feel so confused and frustrated and I feel like I want to throw things in the wall and scream at the same time. Most parts of the work in MKMMA flows on without any problems, but I don´t have enough time for everything I have to do. I don´t have time and energy to do any work at all except the MKMMA work. I need to build network and earn money but I don´t even have time to learn the skills to be good at that. I know it sounds childish and silly but that´s just how I feel right now. I guess I am childish.

I am aware that we can not manage time, we can just manage ourselves. Why is that so hard for me to do? I feel like someone is stealing time from me every day. My time just disappear! This blog post tends to become a self-pity-party, but I somehow needed to put my frustration into words. I hope all readers have patience with it.

While all of these feelings of powerlessness and inadequacy has come over me the last few days, so I feel sometimes a tremendous strength and conviction that I will achieve my goals. When I read Haanel and during the sit so I usually have a fantastic sense of being invincible. I do the work and I notice changes in me, but I want to do more to influence the external result as well. I feel impatient and the fear of not succeeding comes over me. I really need to set my Plan Of Action in action to get some results when it comes to economy. I know what I have to do, but somehow my hours are not enough and that is why I get so frustrated.

Of course, I understand that I have to change myself to have enough time for everything, but here I have one of my greatest difficulties to overcome. I would appreciate advice if anyone has ideas  However I will succeed!

Love to all of you! Don´t forget that you are nature´s greatest miracles.