Now we already are in the middle of week 3. Everything is not that overwhelming as it was when we started, but I still have the feeling now and then, that I may have forgot something of all the things that are supposed to be part of my new habits. Sometimes it feels like the time runs away and in the weekends when everybody is at home, I find it difficult to remember to put the exercices in the first room. The feeling that I cannot get alone and do what I have to do is frustrating and can sometimes make me really angry. It is not because the family prevents me, but more that I have not found the routines to implement my new habits. The old bluerprint is fighting for its survival, I gues.
In my DMP I have ”Every week I schedule my time”, but to be honest that is still a lie. I really have to be better on that, and I will, because I always keep my promises.
A cople of nights ago I had a cool dream, that was unlike any dream I had before. I went in a car fast on a narrow road that went higher and higher. I was a passenger, so I had no control over the speed. On the way there appeared large castle-like buildings that we went straight through. Higher and higher and through new large castles. Alongside the road there was nothing – it was just empty space. The feeling was breathtaking. I think this dream is to say something about the change that has begun in me. It gives me a great feeling that makes me happy.